Emergence lyrics
Power of the Sun
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Power of the sun
Power of the water
Power of the earth and wind
Mother father son
I am your daughter
Let me come home again
Let me come home again
My Story
It's a whole new language I gotta learn how to speak to say what I've got to say
Somewhere between striking with a knife
And turning the other cheek
Not just look away
Deep inside the silence
A woman starts to scream
Is it his or her story?
Hers or history?
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It's a beautiful house and a beautiful yard
And a beautiful family
The mother was modern the father worked hard
The lovely children three
But every night at bedtime
I could not trust my dreams
Is it his or her story?
Hers or history?
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Like a bird in a beautiful cage
Or a rat in a maze
Someone else's shadow play
But I'm not gonna play that game
Sometimes words that you say
Or just the look on your face
Makes me hide my head in shame
But I'm not going to lie for you no more
I'm gonna tell My Story My Story My Story
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It's the cruelest betrayal the strongest taboo
This song, this wrong I gotta write
It's exactly the last thing that I want to do
Start this losing fight
But deep inside the silence a woman starts to sing
Is it his or her story?
Hers or history?
The Well
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It hits you at the oddest moments
No it's not the moments at all
It's more the way it comes from deep
Down in your marrow
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It bubbles up beneath your skin
You struggle not to sink again
You can't afford to blink or it'll pull you in
Down to the place you don't want to go
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Deep down down down down down
Deep down in the well
Deep down deep down deep down to hell I go
And I drink there bitter waters for my thirst
And I think there this cannot get worse
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I do not want to know these things
I don't want to fall to my knees
I don't want to crawl and scream
Ripping at the carpet
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I do not want to show my face
I cannot live with this disgrace
I have completely lost all sense of place
And I've got nowhere to go
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But down deep down deep down
Deep down in the well
Deep down deep down deep down to hell I go
And I drink there bitter waters for my thirst
And I think there this cannot get worse
I don't want to know
I don't want to go
I don't want to see
I don't want to believe
I don't want to lose
I don't want to choose
Tell me why the fuck
Would I want to make it up?
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It hits you at the oddest moments
No it's not the moments at all
It's more the way it comes from deep
Down in your marrow
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Dreamfields
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In the Dreamfields where I sleep
Out beyond rhyme and reason
Far beyond right and wrong
Loyalty and treason
You talk to me there like a brother would
Just small talk and pleasantries and it feels so good
No holy war, no sword, no mention of blame
Or the family name
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In the Dreamfields there I keep
A sister's loving vision
Of the hero of my youth
A man of strength and wisdom
And he talks to me there like a brother would
And he tells me he cares and it feels so good
And I tell him I love him and there is no shame
On the family name
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I was only telling the truth the way they taught me
Truth at all costs, truth at all costs
Look what it cost me
Loot what it cost me
Look what it cost
This truth with no proof
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In the Dreamfields where I sleep
Out beyond loss and sorrow
Crystal soothing waters run
And a warm and gentle wind blows
And it talks to me there like a brother would
And the sun shines down all around
And it feels so good
And the earth holds me up like a family should
If it only could
If it only would
In the Dreamfields
The Perfect Crime
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It's the Perfect Crime, carried out on children
It's the Perfect Crime, nothing you can do
It's the Perfect Crime, no one will believe you
It's the Perfect Crime, no witnesses but you
Now that you're grown do you want to talk about it?
Now that you're grown do you want to take that risk?
Now that you're grown
All your friends are gonna doubt it
Say you're over-dramatizing
Say you're looking for attention
Say you must be fantasizing
Saying it's not cool to mention
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It's the Perfect Crime, carried out in silence
It's the Perfect Crime, on the trusting and the weak
It's the Perfect Crime, a different kind of violence
It's the Perfect Crime, and you must never speak
Now that you're grown after years of being threatened
Now that you're grown you just want to get away
Now that you're grown
Surely you have learned your lessons
There is no such thing as justice
There are words that can't be spoken
There is no one to be trusted
Will the circle be unbroken?
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All my life I've been living in a dream
Afraid of this awakening
All my life I've been swallowing a scream
Terrified of violence, afraid to break the silence
My own tongue would never let me
Sure that they would come and get me
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It's the Perfect Crime, just go ask my father
It's the Perfect Crime, there's nothing I can do
It's the Perfect Crime, and I was the perfect daughter
For the Perfect Crime, until I told the truth
Now that I'm grown my perfect childhood gone forever
Now that I've spoken somehow I'm the one to blame
Now I'm alone, wasn't I so awfully clever?
I thought I blew his cover but he's smelling like a rose
With the whole world in his corner
Well that's just the way it goes
With the Perfect Crime
Two Taboos
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See no evil, hear no evil
Most of all, we don't speak of evil
See no evil, hear no evil
Most of all, don't speak of evil
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Two Taboos
One is for the father
Two Taboos
And the other one's for me
Two Taboos
Don't you ever touch your daughter
But daughter even if he does
You must never speak
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We're all so careful to be polite
So we politely look the other way
While in the silence of broad daylight
Incest, child molest happens every day
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But still we see no evil, hear no evil
Most of all, we don't speak of evil...
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They say that incest is the strongest taboo
But it goes unpunished all the time
But talk about it
And they're sure to crucify you
Breaking the silence seems to be
The more dangerous crime
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Because we see no evil...
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Two Taboos...
Song for Lisa
It'd been so long since I'd seen you
I figured you were someplace dead
Then I hear that you're three years clear
And you're so full of life instead
You were the sister that I needed
The child I had lost
You made your way back home again
And you paid the cost
You made your way back home again
And you paid the cost
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You told me you were getting your history straight
I told you so was I
We held each other and we cried
Together hand in hand again we can let go of a lie
Lisa, I believe I could fly
You were the mother that I wanted
A companion through my fears
The friend I had in silence over all those years
You were the friend I had in silence over all those years
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I don't know when I'm gonna see you again
When I might pass this way
But your spirit speaks in the people I meet
I hear your voice every day
Saying keep on moving full circle girl
Keep on keeping on
Bless this path you walk for it has made you strong
Bless this path you walk for it has made you strong
Bless this path you walk for it has made you strong
Opening Up
song by Dan Connor ©1993
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Winter to winter I stood by the door
A stairway imposing and dark
As seen from the ocean one might fear the shore
But I long to feel my heart
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Opening up
Opening up
Something secret's escaping
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Deep in the darkness ancient commands
Swept my intentions aside
Like barricades keeping the sea from the sand
But I feel a rising tide
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Opening up
Opening up
Something secret's escaping
Opening up
Opening up
Something sacred is falling down
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All the king's horses and all the king's men
They could not put him together again
All the king's horses and all the king's men
They could not put him together
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I must light a candle to demons denied
To what's lost and what still remains
For all I've kept hidden I don't have to hide
And the choices I've regained
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Opening up...
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Secrets & Lies
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I got my secrets from my father
And I passed them on to my daughter
I did not see that she would learn the same from me
I never laid a finger on her
But I did not treat her with honor
Cuz every day I smoked my dope to run away
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Secrets & Lies yes I was a master
Secrets & Lies I thought I'd get it past her
Everything outside looked just fine to me
But she saw, she knew, she got it, she grew
Into the trouble I was leading her straight to
And now I see how she was watching me
She learned exactly what my life was there to teach
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I believe we create the world in our families.
We either pass on our sad histories to our children
Or we give them the opportunity to create
Something new.
I finally got it that every time I took a drink or a drug
To run away from my past
I was running right back into its arms,
And I was passing that poison on to my children.
But no more. No more.
Secrets & Lies a family tradition
Secrets & Lies an internal condition
Where everything outside looks just fine to you
But she saw, she knew, she got it, she grew
Into the trouble I was leading her straight to
And now I see how she was watching me
She learned exactly what my life was there to teach
And now I pray just for today
That I can live in such a way
That she is free in every way
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I am moving from darkness into light
I am moving from blindness into sight
I am moving from confusion into clarity
From selfishness to charity
I am moving from dying into living
I am moving from from anger into forgiving
I am moving from hatred into love
I am moving from loneliness into love
I am moving from fear into love
I am moving from fear into love...
I am moving out of my fear into love
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Warrior
song by Kim Baryluk ©1993
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I was a shy and lonely child
With the heavens in my eyes
And as I walked along the lane
I heard the echoes of her cries
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I cannot fight, I cannot a fierce Warrior be
It's not my nature nor my teaching
It is the womanhood in me
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I was a lost and angry youth
There were no tears in my eyes
I saw no justice in my world
Only the echoes of her cries
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I cannot fight, I cannot a fierce Warrior be
It's not my nature nor my teaching
It is the womanhood in me
I am an older woman now
And I will heed my own cries
And I will a fierce Warrior be
Til not another woman dies
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I can and will fight, I can and will a Warrior be
It is my nature and my duty
It is the womanhood in me
I can and will fight, I can and will a Warrior be
It is my nature and my duty
It is the sisterhood in me
Don't Say a Word
Don't Say a Word or you're going to be sorry
Shut up and go to sleep
No one would ever believe such a story
And silence is what you must keep
Everyone knows that children are liars
And grown ups have cornered the truth
Don't Say a Word or I'll skin you alive
And besides what have you got for proof?
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Don't Say a Word or you'll lose your whole family
They'll come take your daddy away
Your mother will hate you for wrecking her life
And your brothers will curse you always
Everyone knows he's a prince of a man
He's a fine and upstanding adult
Because of your lies his whole kingdom could crumble
And child it would all be your fault
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I don't know what to do with the voices
The voices that scream in my head
I don't know what to say to myself
When I think I'd be better off dead
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Don't Say a Word or we'll surely expose
That it's you who are wicked and vile
Anything you say will be used against you
And now it is you here on trial
Everyone knows that you don't stand a chance
It is you who must lose every time
Don't Say a Word just learn to accept
you're the victim of the perfect crime
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Ode to Stephanie
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I was driving along with my friend Stephanie
Babbling on about the goddess Persephone
Was she willing or was she raped?
And what did he tell her before she escaped?
It got me thinking about the old man Lucifer
Hades the name in the story 'bout the girl
Who only knew how to play
And she would surely believe every word you'd say
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And I've been meaning to tell you for all of this time
He was the adult
And you were just a little girl and it was surely a crime but
It wasn't your fault
It wasn't your fault
It wasn't your fault
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Stephanie agreed and Cheryl did too
It was time to grow up and fill those shoes
That were left us by the Crone
But first we had to ascend that throne
And Steph said, "I'm scared to be the queen"
And I said, "yea," and I shuddered
Thinking of that scene
She tells her huntsman to bring back the heart
Of the Snow White princess alone in the dark
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And I've been meaning to tell you for all of these years
You ain't no pillar of salt
And I've been wanting to shake you and rattle your tears
It wasn't your fault
It wasn't your fault
It wasn't your fault
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Hades and Persephone sitting in a tree
Next thing that you know they're K-I-S-S-I-N-G
First comes love, then comes marriage
Then comes all the rage
Feeling like you're underground or living in a cage
Spring turns to summer, summer turns to fall
Autumn turns to winter, and nothing grows at all
Mama is beside herself calling out your name
You cannot answer her, you cannot answer
You cannot answer for the shame
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Well the shame was thick, it was thick as blood
It was red as pomegranate it was strong as love
And he was preying upon your need
And so you swallowed that one little seed
And now you're a woman but still you're a girl
And you're half underground and you're half in the world
And you're wanting to get to the sky
But you're weighted down by a great big lie
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And I've been meaning to tell you now that you're grown
You're the adult
And you can re-write the story and make it your own, girl
It wasn't your fault
It wasn't your fault
It wasn't your fault
It wasn't your fault
Too Much​
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I love you Too Much to tell the truth
I love me Too Much to tell the lie
And so I hang myself with what's the use?
Why try? Why try?
There is nothing I love more than my family
The ones of my birthing and the ones of my birth
Though I've been forever scarred by both
I think you could say
I wear the marks proudly, for what they're worth
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I love you Too Much to explain
I love me Too Much to deny
I only know how good it felt to be home again
And so I cry, I cry
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So I drop the subject, I move far away from there
You've hurt us so deeply they want to say
You've hurt me so deeply I want to cry
But we come back again with beautiful smiles on our face
And we laugh and we lie and we give and we try
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But we enjoy the sacred rhythm of the family
Subtle something lifelong feeling fitting so right
And all I have to do to keep this sweet mantle over me
Is be quiet, be polite
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So I come back and I'm on self-destruct mode
I want to binge I want to smoke
I want to choke the girl with the big brown eyes
For making the same deal that she made so long ago
To never be lonely and never be right
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I love you long as I live
I love you forever and yet
For the sake of love god knows that I can forgive
But for the children, I can't forget
Enter Into Healing
When you Enter Into Healing
Be prepared to lose everything
When you Enter Into Healing
Be prepared to be alone
There is nothing that is sacred
There is no one who's inviolate, there maybe nothing left
As you rip away the safety of every truth you've known
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When you Enter Into Healing
You must welcome home the enemy
Your heart will tell you stories
That your mind will not believe
As your body reawakens
It will flood your days with memories, dreaded memories
And the power of that birthing will bring you to your knees
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When you Enter Into Healing
I'll be sending all my strength to you
When you Enter Into Healing
I'll be there to beat the drum
As you learn to face the feelings
Your own courage will amaze you, nothing can faze you
As you find the wings of freedom that you need to overcome
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When you Enter Into Healing
You bring the greatest gift to me
And to every child who suffers still
And believes she is alone
With each voice that breaks the silence
Is a choice to claim a victory, one more victory
And make the world a little safer for every child to grow
And make the world a little safer for every child to grow
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Thank You Song​
When there's light in the soul, there's beauty in the person
When there's beauty in the person, there is harmony in the home
When there's harmony in the home, there is honor in the nation
When there's honor in the nation, there is peace in the world
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I want to sing a Thank You Song to all my earth angels
I want to sing the praises of the people I have known
I want to bless each and every face
Every smile, every hand on my shoulder
All of you who held the space when I thought I was alone
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I'm taking to you, all my sisters who walked this road beside me
I'm talking to you, all my brothers, who helped to bring me home
To my teachers, to my lovers, to my husbands, to my children
To the healers, all you warriors whose only weapon is love
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I want to honor my ancestors, all who came before me
And I honor this life's family for the love that you have shown
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When there's light in the soul, there's beauty in the person
When there's beauty in the person, there is harmony in the home
When there's harmony in the home, there is honor in the nation
When there's honor in the nation, there is peace in the world
All songs except Opening Up and Warrior © Cici Porter 1993